I don't know what it is but it's hard for me to sometimes do things I know I should. I don't know why I do this. I did this with my student loans, by waiting until the last minute to actually see what I owed before the payment was due. Maybe I believe if I don't have to deal with it, it's not a problem. I'm not entirely sure. But, as I was driving home from work the excuses for not going to sign up for the gym began popping into my head... I was tired, it was a long day at work, maybe the gym is going to be too full, maybe I won't like the gym, maybe I should research other gyms, maybe I should buy new gym clothes first before I go. All stupid excuses that really weren't important.
So I got home and ate dinner. I told myself I would leave at 6:30 and slowly began finding ways to procrastinate online. Finally, I changed into my work out clothes. Put together my work out bag. Thought maybe I wouldn't go because I wasn't really sure what bag to bring. See how stupid my excuses are? It's almost like I reach for anything at all. And it wasn't that I didn't want to work out because I did. It was more the nerves of walking into some place I'd never been and signing up for it. I hate the unknown. For some reason though, my mind isn't put up with my inner voice's excuses. I decided screw it, grabbed my work out bag and headed out to my car. I even sat in my car for a bit before turning the engine on... maybe you should go another day, your car battery was dead this morning, are you sure you want to drive it? I turned the key and drove there, it's literally 2 minutes away driving. I plan on walking there some days, if it's not pitch black outside.
So I get to the parking lot. This inner voice was really trying to win. I sat in the car for a few minutes until finally I made myself go inside. I walked up to the counter and before the man working could even say hi, I just blurted, "I want to sign up to go here." And after filling out a piece of paper and asking a few questions, I had my card. Simple. Easy. Painless.
I spent so many hours worrying about nothing. I'd created all these problems in my mind that weren't real. Instead, I decided to do something about a problem that is real. Sure it's day one of going to the gym. Lots of people have memberships they never use, but I don't intend on being one of those people. I like my money and don't enjoy wasting it. Will I hate waking up at 5:45 to go sweat for 30 minutes? Probably. But in the long run it's going to be more than worth it. That is something I know. No excuse my inner voice can conjure up will change that.
I honestly don't know where this motivation came from. I'm not questioning it. I'm just following it. Following it to become the person I want to be, no more wanting, I'm actually going to do it.
I saw this video below a few months ago. It has stayed with me and from time to time I'll think of it. It's great motivation. You can change your life. It all starts with one step and a little determination to keep going.
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